Frustration...

Something we have all experienced. Lately one of my biggest has been my career path.. I am trained as an MA with various care experience that spans 13 years now. I have kept a 4.0 grade average no matter what classes I am going through, or what gets thrown at me in everyday life. Yet everywhere I turn, doors are closed because I'm not bi-lingual or no one wants to hire and Army wife due to the moving Army families do. I have always worked, since I was pretty young. It's part of my make up. And most of that work has involved helping others. It is a calling, or at least feels like it. My purpose is to help others feel better when they are hurt or sick. It's not an ego thing, it's more a driving instinct. Kind of hard to explain. Right now I'm going to concentrate on volunteering. It's still serving someone who needs help. My husband has been supportive on this, telling me it doesn't matter what I decide to do, as long as I find happiness and satisfaction doing it, even if it doesn't involve a paycheck. That has been a huge relief. In my life before our marriage, being loved was based on the size of the paycheck I could bring home. This is not the case now, but set in feelings and expectations are hard to break.

I have faith I will be led to where I belong, even if I have wobbly moments, Huge wobbly moments. Right now I feel like I'm blind and deaf and have been left alone in a corn maze, but it will pass. I'm stubborn, so I'll just keep forging on and hopefully find my way out of this maze. I just have to have more patience and not chop my way out with a machete.