Yes, it's been awhile. Like a lot of busy moms, I get behind. Sometimes I get completely lost. Thankfully I bumble my way back. The last couple months have been filled with teenage son issues, husbands away with the Army for field problems. getting my RMA (yay!), almost getting a job but not (boo!), and preparing for an upcoming move to Georgia in a few months. Now the school year and our second anniversary are coming up. Is it a wonder I'm back on Ambien? :D
The past few months have got me thinking about extended family. Parents, siblings, so on. I've been blessed with my husband's family. They are awesome and love my kiddo to bits, so they've won my heart. But I've started missing having one of my own. I have a great big brother, but he is a tow boater and has an incredible, busy life of his own. Other than that it's kind of sparse. I am grateful that I have been able to have friends that I consider my family. They have given me huge amounts of love and strength. I wouldn't be where I'm at today without some of them. But there's still a little part of me that misses not being able to call my mom and get her advice or having a dad who's always there. That part envies people who do have that.
I'm not sure where these feelings will lead. For years I haven't been bothered too much by them. But I'm thinking about a lot of things I haven't thought about for years. Maybe this is the reason God is giving me this time at home, to examine and find some closure. The older I get, the more closure becomes more important. Things are changing in me. I'm getting older, maturing. What new adventures and discoveries are to come?
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